special

one tear is there in my eyes...

no one is there in my sights..

still waiting for the special one..

wanted to get that real one..

I don't know his face till now...

wonder what he is doing now..

surely, he will care for me..

Is he too thinking of me...

I will accept him the way he's living....

but will he adjust in the art of my living????

Is he gonna blow...

when in the party I am on the flow???

will he show trust...

when guy will look at me with lust??

may be, he will love me...

he will adore me...or understand me...

or may be

he wont except me.....uhhh

me not you

once again I got dumped from the same guy...

now he had proves...I don't meant for any guy...

so many times I wonder...

why always I have to surrender...

when I used to walk with you...

my life starts and ends on you...

I ignored each and every misdeed of yours...

even forget all things that happened in the past of ours...

I always be a favorite game for you...

and guess who always win -its you..

pain would be the answer when god will ask..

what I get from he's allotted task....

why I always have to suffer???...

why would I questioned you...

when who changed is me not you....

wanted to be protected...

Just get caught in my own dreams...
wanted to be free without making a scream...
living in the seventh cloud...
look like have to pay rent quite loud...
nobody knows the feeling of a bat..
never want to know what an angel want...
have great confusion with my own feelings...
will you give me answer and do healing???
oh god...
make me sick, make me mad...
don't make me cry, don't make me sad....
after doing all wrong with me..
I know u'll say its all because of me...
Fine...
It's all my fault then...
you don't wanted to help me...
wanted to get rid of me...
wanted to move on, then do it with proud...
plz make me realize, am from the ground...

sabne kaha tum me pehli jaisi baat nahi....

maine kaha zindagi me uska sath nahi....

sabne kaha ab bhi kisiki aankho me doob skte ho....

maine kaha ab kisiki ankho me wo baat nahi....

sabne kaha kyun itna toot kr chaha usse??

maine kaha insaan hun pathar nahi...

sabne kaha kya bewafa hai wo?????

maine kaha mujhe ab wafa ki talash nahi.....

sabne kaha bhul ja usse.....

maine kaha WO  HAQIQAT  HAI  KOI  KHWAB  NAHI.........

AT NIGHT

sometimes at night,

when I fall on bed, tried to sleep

there something in my mind,

may be....umm I don't know...

somthing from my past....

memories or may be my regrets.

something from my future,

worries or just my stupidness..

sometimes I just think about my love,

where is he???

Is he alright???

ever he think about me???

foughting from my present and past.

tried to focus on my path.

but felt failed in this...

everytime I close my eyes,

I saw memories related to him....

I am what I am at night,

cant hide myself from the spirits of night...

APART

He hurted me so much,
like a butcher do his work.
he wanted me so bad,
even then he leave me....so sad..
he care for me all the time..
what if now he don't have time..
he show he knows me..
but reality is he never owe me..
I wish if he will be in my life..
the hell around me is the beauty of my life..
I died inside of me last year.
he didn't even notice that year..:(
he said when he is leaving,
AM ALWAYS WITH YOU..
but live without me happily....
so....
I am alive without him...with a smiley...
but damn I cant see....
WHERE ARE YOU???